Time for a new change~

embrace change so that one can continue to stay sane and happy. Haz.. what a 'meaningful' statement.

Suppose to transfer to Vivo on Wed but Wisma wants me to stay back and do night work. How ironic? I rather move to Vivo a new environment and learn something new than staying back at Wisma

feeling unwell but cant take mc. no one working if i take mc.. but if i really fall apart den how? that will always be a vicious cycle until the day with a permanent team of 6. Less than 60 days to saying bye bye. The feeling is great~LOLx

Went to Batam recently. Apparently, people did not want to heed my advice and ended up screwing the trip. How nice it is to start with someone threatening to find you when you are not the responsible person. Having to make decisions after wards when your initial plan was removed by someone words. Complaining that everything is small and expensive when you do not want to spend on the necessary transportation and food. Hey guys.. we are here on holiday! Not to scrimp on every single thing and being afraid of landslide. We had too much comfort in SG that one assumes it should be the way in the whole world. Eventually, I am very glad that we did not go to BKK. On the other side, I got to taste A&Ws again and have a good rest for 3 days and receiving some good news on the trip. HAPPY!

Time to bath and have lunch and go to work.

Jackson

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what should i do?

I once mention that we are all but chess pieces. I acknowledge that but I also know my own worth. I play for only for a worthy chess master. So what lies ahead remains so unclear .. just waiting .. someone mention about being just a corpse without a soul and heart. Apparently, it is happening to almost everyone. So what should i do?

Bought another Andrew Matthews book and almost completing it soon. Same old stuff waiting for me to apply and be Happy. There is always a choice and I know which to choose. I accept who I am and where are my weakness. But it hurts where efforts ended up in vain. Afterall it takes two hands to clap, getting tired of initiating and ending up like a fool. So what should i do?

My Song Ericsson phone LCD screen die on me and 80% of my contacts gone after using another hp. haiz.. Wanted to get iphone3GS now but i am hesitating to put my money on it. My contract has not ended and I was thinking i should wait when the prices is further driven down plus having the vouchers. Meanwhile, I was thinking of getting a 2nd hand HP to use. So what should i do?

Jackson

Break Free ... Be Happy ...

human

We cry at those movies because at our deepest level, we care. We love. We are touched. There is that core in each of us that is simply beautiful. Depending on how much we have been hurt, we will conceal or reveal our deepest feelings, but we all have these qualities.

When we see the news stories about starving around the globe, we all ache inside. We all care. That is the way we are. Accept that you have these qualities - the capacity to love and empathise and be human. You are not only human. You are human. Recognise your worth and remind yourself that you deserve to be treated well.

- abstract from Andrew Matthews "Happiness in Hard Times"

Jackson

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Create to save, yet destroying the created?

Feeling tired and not motivated again. Although I finally finish my first draft, I had yet to start on the 2nd draft. Arghhh~

Only motivated to watch SNSD videos on Utube. LOLx. amazingly, I finish 4 months of work. Went to watch movie to distress and to let out my tears. Haz. I watch anime and movies so that i can cry. weird anot?

Was a nice motive though.. was thinking about the lessons and conflicts rather than anything else. Instead of beauty is in the eye of beholder, they should have importance in the eye of beholder. Create to save, yet destroying the created? Survival is preprogrammed in our brain and we do almost anything to achieve that very aim.

Met up with sing, apparently, he was hit by reality too. haz~ met up with half of the 'pussycat dolls' members and sing for the movie. Sorry for not introducing to each other. LOLx. kinda of rush and weird~

damn.. my hp is damaged. need to scout for one now.. haiz.. i want iphone lehz.. if not HTC Hero??

Jackson

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<3 SNSD

Apparently I fallen for another idol group, group name starting with S as well.. SNSD :D LOLx.. That is besides the main point.. Just something cheerful to start the post with. haz~

Went to NAB 2 weeks ago.. Finally went there! Ever since I was 18, we been waiting to enter it since there is a age limit of 23. LOL.

The view was nice.. I want to be there to chill again soon~

Is my off day today and I dont have any plan. Guess I just rest at home and do something meaningful.

Been thinking about my career path and things that I ultimately want to accomplish. Waiting for the important call or letter to decide my plans for the next few months. Wish me luck that I get good news.

I had always been interested in many things and I understand that I cant do that much and have to streamline my 'wants' and focus. After all, the shortest distance between 2 points is a straight line. Finishing up my first draft for 'PH'. When can I finish it? =P

Reading Lost Symbol, halfway through. As usual, it is good. haz~

Jackson Tan

Break Free ... Be Happy ...

Rocky!

Jackson

Break Free ... Be Happy ...

found this on my french mate fb

A woman has a close male friend. This means that he is probably interested in her, which is why he hangs around so much. She sees him strictly as a friend. This always starts out with, you're a great guy, but I don't like you in that way. This is roughly the equivalent for the guy of going to a job interview and the company saying, You have a great resume, you have all the qualifications we are looking for, but we're not going to hire you. We will, however, use your resume as the basis for comparison for all other applicants. But, we're going to hire somebody who is far less qualified and is probably an alcoholic. And if he doesn't work out, we'll hire somebody else, but still not you. In fact, we will never hire you. But we will call you from time to time to complain about the person that we hired :D

Hahaz..

Jackson

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3months gone~

Today marked the end of 'probation'. What will happen next? I have no idea? Do I want to know? I dont want to know as well. Just feel very moody. Another boring day ahead. Guess I will learn another new thing tonight. Haz. but the thing is not very useful.. hmmm...

Sometime I wanna cry out as hard as possible but I can never succeed. Only through certain medium then I can. Guess I should watch back 1 litre of tears again before everything accumulate and overwhelm me.

Up to now, I am still uncertain what kind of life I would want to live. After experience 'life & death' situations, it make me thinks that living the very moment is the most important, however, on contrast to my own character who likes to plan ahead, I dont like to live in uncertainty and not knowing what to do next. This is just not me. Now, I dont even bother to know when is my next off day so that i can plan sometime. I do know that to meet friends on my off days is quite not that possible. So I end up resting at home, tidying my room, throwing away items and thinking of the next step and end up being discouraged. I guess that is my own conflict of beliefs which i need to sort them out soon if not i will hanging on a thread.

Jackson

Break Free ... Be Happy ...